Once again at this time of year, I am writing to thank you for all you have done for me throughout the past few years.
When Larry decided to portray you, I was introduced to a world of incredible people who set aside their lives to portray you, eventually leading to their being shaped by you and what you represent. I thank you for Larry’s friends and mentors who continue to don the suit of red. Many have become good friends, mentors and spiritual advisors to me.
Having you in my life figuratively and in many cases, literally, has helped me survive the past five years as there is a constant reminder of the magick, spirit and love that you represent. The men in the red suit who have remained in my life are blessings to me – I am reminded to love and give freely of myself through their actions. My faith in humanity is refreshed when you show your presence in them.
Your biggest and best gift to me was Larry being given a focus and drive – even through the worst cancer threw at him. Your next greatest gift to me has been that the men who portray you that stood behind and beside me and supported me when my world crumbled, many of them propped me up to ensure that I didn’t fall apart. At least two of these folks have been a large part of my life before you entered it and they remain a large part of my life. They continue to support me in their actions, words, prayers and deeds and they remind me that faith can be a powerful thing when given the right intent and reason. I believe.
You have given me a good friend who both portrays you but also has taken me under his wing and works with me musically. David has been my most ardent supporter, believing in me even when I didn’t believe in myself. He still does. I was able to reconnect with him this year after some time away when I was not in a good head and heart space and I’m reminded that the spirit of St. Nicholas and St. Francis of Assisi can still exist in an over noisy and complicated world.
Make me an instrument of your peace indeed. David is such an instrument and he brings peace within him wherever he goes. Thank you.
You have given me a number of spiritual supports and guides who are showing me that faith is a personal thing and can be balanced with my scientific mind’s desire for rationality and evidence. Just as I believe in your existence in the hearts of the people who portray you, I believe in a higher power that exists in the hearts and minds of people who are searching for more.
Michael, Glenn, Hal, Bruce, Lee, Leon and Stephen have shown me this higher power through their actions, words and hearts. Again, they all have shown faith in me, when my own faith and belief in myself has been sorely lacking. I thank you for their presence as it’s nice to have someone in my corner when I don’t feel like it’s warranted.
You have given me the drive to keep going when everything within me fought forward motion. I continue to make and release music that represents who I am and provides a glimpse into whom I am striving to become.
You have continued to keep my family in my life and I am blessed with a supportive and caring Mother and an amazing brother, sister-in-law and nieces.
So. For once, it’s time that someone thank you for all you have given me. Gifts that aren’t material, however gifts that have supported me, provided me strength and kept me alive.
Thank you once again, Santa, for all you have given.
I love you dearly,
P.S. I’d still like to ask you for one thing. Can you see to it that the good things that happen to me this year aren’t immediately followed by not so good things? I understand the need for balance, however 2018 was like one sucker punch after another and I’m getting pretty winded and sore.